Day 1 post op

Some good. Some bad. Another baby just out of surgery needed our spot on the pod so we were moved to our own room- not step down - just our own room and bathroom. Knew that chocolate for the nurses would pay off! They could have moved another baby but decided Macsen was more ready :)
No sooner had we gotten here then Macsen started really suffering. Crying, repeatedly rubbing his face, getting all worked up and setting off all the alarms. Not good when you have fresh stitches in your heart.
His nurse thought he might be having a reaction to morphine as additional doses just made him worse. So they gave him something else. Didn't work eithr so they gave him sedation. We had to stop the screaming so they let Daddy hold him which really helped but they were terrified because he still has an RA line - a line going directly into his right atrium. If he rips it out he can rip a hole in his heart. He has been almost impossible to get an iv in- after the 2nd attempt today they gave up hence why they are leaving the line in - for access. Anyways, we had to stop the crying and Daddy did that while they let him. Exhausted. All of us. Oh wait.... Still crying.
Update: over 4 hrs of inconsolable screaming and our nurse had to go above the NP and fellow to the attending and get our poor babe something to help him which was Ativan. Love our nurse. He is peaceful now but what a tough day for our little guy. I have never felt more helpless. Holding him wasn't really safe and no amount of patting, pacifier, singing, humming, white noise, pumping his legs - none of that could touch the pain he was feeling. So incredibly hard. Praying that was the worst of it and he will start adjusting to all the extra pressure in his head. Praying we don't ever have to put him through that kind of pain again. Please God.