Rocking his 1 sock (we put it on b/c the sight of his bandage was freaking him out) |
He needs to see Macsen - examine him and observe him- in addition to getting another MRI , a special one that watches the spinal fluid and how it circulates, or doesn't, around the brain. He said they can do it at the same time he is to get his cardiac MRI which is great so he doesn't have to be sedated yet again. We just have to get up there! So no official diagnosis yet.
Yet another trip to Philly is now in the works - hopefully for next month. Of course the week the kids are out of school, the week I have been been mentally labeling "CHOP week" also happens to be the week this amazing neurologist highly recommended by other CHOP heart/neuro families and Macsen's cardio IS GOING OUT OF TOWN! Ugh. Never simple. So now the girls will have to miss school or we'll have to leave them which I hate doing. We still have to schedule everything with his cardiologist so all the dates are really tentative - no idea what their schedule looks like in October. I do know I need to get Macsen seen soon - nothing like the threat of permanent brain damage to make you anxious.
The neuro said no more chiropractor for now(which I get but hate b/c M's retching and gagging is in full force again) and no jumping on trampolines, or bouncy houses. Good to know since I was going to buy Macsen a little trampoline for his 2nd birthday on Sunday :( He loves getting on our big one with his sisters - horrified that I could have done damage to his brain just by letting him play on there. This sucks. I don't want him to have any more complications. I don't want to learn another specialty, another set of abbreviations and painful detail of another major organ I always took for granted. Ok he's got half a heart - don't give him more to deal with please.
Pity party - table of one, just one... bc Macsen won't join me at it. He just keeps moving forward, crinkly"happy eyes" squinting at me, flashing his wicked little grin - reminding me I can't stop believing in him now.
Don't give up - Miracle Macsen has already come so far! He'll get through this too. I can hear your voice, and wish I could give you a hug! I can't offer to watch the girls for you down there, but if you need anything up here - point me in the right direction and consider it done. Love you.
ReplyDeleteMake a conference call with ALL the doctors you need to see, and STRESS how important it is for you both, financially and child care for the "girls" when you are in CHOP! They SHOULD take all this into consideration and be humane enough to be totally considerate of your situation. There is TOO much stress you are under, and they should be made aware of this, and hopefully understanding! Enough is enough!!!!!
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